Rusting Voices

I'm seeing it deep, deep inside you, 
The reflection of something I never hoped of,
I see the sadistic smile leaning onto your beautiful face,
In your eyes I see my past, present..
..no future.

Please, don't cease to hope, 
In the unfaithful destiny of yours,
It will always betray you..

Please, don't murder the unending love intents, 
Please, don't attack the tremendous attacks towards you..

I understand, I even know, you're rotting inside,
You're seeing yourself, you look terrified.
Slowly, without a doubt, you'll end it soon.

But, wait! Don't! I want, I will,
Let you enter, live in myself, 
I'll let you speak through my words, I'll
Let you be horified, be amazed, be traumatized,
I'll..

However, don't hope of anything big, hope at something gigantic,
I'm not burning, I'm not even rotten, 
I'm not dying, I'm not even about to be murdered,
I'm going to bed, I'm already ashes. 

Whispers

The pure, moonlight falls on the wooden piece I've become. 
I wither, slowly, as the burning love I have for you, 
Easily metamorphoses me in ashes, 
Sparkling, hapily in the lonely moonlight.

I'm sure you think, I'm lost somewhere
I'm sure you live happier than never,
I'm sure you'll rot inside yourself, 
I'm sure you'll cut what you won't forget.

The will won't stop, it's driven by
The atrocious hope for destruction, the fact, that I won't be able to ever be myself
Rises
Reflecting the dawn's light, in it's wet, pierced eyes.

The dusk has come, they gather near, 
Closer and closer I close in yourself, 
The red and orange light of the fading sun, 
Reflects in the crimson blood that's madly jumping
In the air.

Oyasumi Nasai

The dust carrying wind flows, 
Taking my breath along with the dust, 
Through the night, through the yells,
Of the falling scents of hope.

Breaking under my heavy feet, 
The parquet recites his own story,
It feels like it's crying aswell,
Being caught in the blankness of what we call world.

Even the windows become opaque, 
Blocking the view, trying to protect,
Trying to defend, it's useless, in the end,
They're scattered to pieces, along the cold pitch.

Liveless, you lay, 
You seem to be alive, 
Drooling, continuosly, until you drawn, 
Falling down, until you moan. 

The crack in my body, becomes larger and larger,
Even if I scream, " I love you until I'm breaking ",
It won't help at all, it won't even matter,
I will break apart, empty and abandoned. 

Now, that everything has passed, 
My love, frozen to death, still cries,
Into the night, gasping for breath, 
I'll love you now, tonight and forever, 
I'll love you 'till the end, 
Oyasumi.. nasai. 

Koe..

It feels like I'm breaking,
Literally,
The obfuscation sorrounds me, turning the air into excruciating pain.
I don't want to breathe anymore, I don't want to exist anymore,
The denial of eternal life and souls kills me, deeply,
Stabbing, sword, my, your, heart.

You're tongue, twisting artistically into his mouth now,
I come to an end, I come..
I slowly drive by, throw out all my self consciousness,
I may or may not return,
I may or may not love you

Blinking Silver

The sky looked so bright,
With it's stars..
Falling down to.. the ground
Ah, those days..

The cherry blossoms I always loved now lay,
Lay, lay, won't ever stop laying.
You lay, you lie, you look down,
The superiority of your scent falls to the ground..
Same with the stars..
From the sky that was once bright.

I'm no more embraced,
By your tiny, soft arms,
I'm left alone to cry and live,
I'm left alone..

Denying my existence due to no proof..
Now that you're left, you took it too.
Two years old, my only proof..
My second breath, along with you..

It's ending, painfully,
I cannot feel even the smell of the cherry blossoms,
I can only taste the blood pouring
From the now dark sky..
Blinking in my night,
To the end..
Near..

Bleeding Marrow

I look through the window of my room
And see..
What lies ahead of me.
A world sunk in filth and dirty pain
My love, scattered in a crushed plane..

I strive to win,
An impossible war with myself,
But I can't last longer,
And you won't just arive to help me yet..

I feel empty and destroyed,
A wreck of the industrial war.
A victim of the splintered
Ideals of our common lives.

And even though I tried..
Again, again and again,
I tried my best, I did what I could,
In the end you failed to exist..
In my life..

Would it be a nuissance to ask you
To come back in my life since
You didn't even exist..
Somewhere else than in my mind ?!

My fantasies are long gone, now I cry,
My soul pours down through the holes
In my body and I feel..
Like I'm going to..

The nausea won't stop from hauting me,
It's painful, because I just can't see
You! In the darkness of my room,
I slowly fade away..

And even if the thorns shaped in the beautiful snow flakes
Will slowly pierce me to death,
I won't hesitate to live, and go on..
Just to be able to keep
Keeping you alive..
In my sick.. mind..

By Ayame Kiyoshi ( me )